Cause You're Amazing, Just The Way You Are

I cannot remember the last time I felt this happy in a relationship.

I've never felt like someone was so right for me. I talked to RR when I visited her last month about how it's so surprising and odd for me to hear A compliment me so much, so often, so sweetly. She said she was so happy for me that I finally have that, but that she was sad for me that it wasn't the norm, and that I found it strange.

That led me to thinking about how little I got that in the past. I'm not saying that any of my past relationships were douchebags or anything. Well... no we'll just leave it at that. But I was never treated as well as A treats me. Normally my bitch side comes out in a relationship. Or I walk all over the person. When you don't have that connection, or you don't feel they care about you it's easy to do that.

I worried with A being such a sweet, kind person, that I'd bring out the bitch, or walk all over him and I don't think I have. I've warned him about it but he just keeps saying that I'm not like that with him. Which is so bizarre for me. He's just so sweet and I don't want to be like that to him.

I'm so crazily happy these days. I miss him when I'm not with him. As soon as I leave, I can't wait to be with him again. I want to spend all my time with him just being with him, getting to know him better, and sharing who I am with him. I want him in my day-to-day, I want him in my life.

I think I may have been corrected on my disbelief in love at first sight.