Sister talk

I spent so much time last night talking to TH and MM and TH asked me to be a girl for a sec and gush about A. I have a hard time doing that. I can do it in my blog or to A but i have a difficult time doing it to others 'cause I got used to telling nobody anything about my ex because it was always bad so i stopped so now telling good things is hard too. TH had to ask me specific questions she was curious about cause i didn't know what to say. So she asked me if i think it's a long term thing and i said yes and she asked why and i told her how well we click and that we're able to talk and we have similar viewpoints on things that are important to me and just that we connect so well and he treats me so good. :)

Time vs Money

I love working. Sooo, so much. I love being a nanny to the girls. I love my boss, she's easy to talk to.. we get along great, and she's laidback and nice. I love watching S when I get a chance too, even though he's cheekier these days :) I love doing respite relief with Boog. I enjoy selling Avon and Regal. I am liking my new respite job, but not sure I click with the family and the person I'm supporting enough to do it long-term. But I love working. The more downtime I have, the more I wish I was working. The only problem with how much I work, is how little time I have to go to Belleville to visit the W's. And that A and I have to work hanging out around when I work different things. And I haven't had a chance to see TB in forever!! And when I do have time off I try to go to see Faja. And then of course if I have time, I have no money and if I have money, I have no time. So getting to Belleville or Burlington or Aaron's can be tricky when gas is pricey these days.

I haven't got to see AW in ages, I haven't seen TB in ages, and I haven't see RR in ages but she lives crazy far so that's more understandable. :) I'm glad that RR is moving back because I'm hoping I'll be able to find some time to go visit her and AW at the same time. Also looking forward to a few roadtrips with AW and the boys to go visit RR and JR when they buy a new house in Ontario when they move back. It'll be a long road trip but fun I think for us to hang out on the way, and worth it when we arrive at RR and JR's new town. :)

I gotta start planning more time for people I don't get to see often! I'm gonna try people :)

-Tee

My Bestie

I'm so over the moon that RR and JR are moving back to Ontario. I'm beyond ecstatic that they'll be home again. Although they'll be living far away in the province it's just so nice to know it's driveable, and that we're further in the process of them being close to home again. :)

I miss them both so much. Not being able to see RR as much as when we were in school together, and even after we finished, has been difficult for the last two years. I'm so glad my bestie will be back!

Difficult Situation

Let me start this by saying I'm trying to respect confidentiality with this person so I'm trying to not give any details.

I've recently begun a new respite job with a person with a disability I've not had experience with. It's been challenging so far but it's been interesting to get experience with another disability. Not that I believe that all people with a disability are the same, far from it... but I just have never supported someone with this particular disability. I've met other people that have it, but I've never been in a supporting role with anyone affected by it.

I've had to face decisions and situations and circumstances that I never considered. I've had to problem solve on the spot quite a few times in various dilemmas. But so far I think I've done a good job with my common sense, what I learned in college, and with what I've learned in life thus far.

I've wrestled with my values and beliefs in what I think is right and wrong. I've struggled with my thoughts on a person's rights, and on restraining, and how to protect my own safety. It's been a tricky job so far.

The family of the person I'm supporting is making things a bit more complicated for me and they are making me not want to continue on in this job. They have asked me to do a couple favours that don't show respect for my role in their lives. I'm there to support their family member in community outings and to provide respite relief for them, not to do chores and errands for them on my way to their house. That has been frustrating and quite frankly offensive to my job, and annoying.

That's all for now I think.

ENGAGED!

Not me! Don't worry!

My brother MM took TH to Cuba a few weeks ago and proposed to her on the beach on May 25th with the ring I'd been hiding for him for a couple months :) Giving him the ring back before he left was tricky with her in the basement with us. There were some sneaky shananigans right under her nose! :)

They'll be getting married next year and I'm sooooooooooo happy and excited for them. That means wedding shower! Since they moved in last year I've gotten closer to them and gotten to see their relationship and I'm so happy for them. They're disgustingly adorable. :)

So yeah, so exciting :)

Tuesday Thoughts

I can't wait until I buy my first house. I'm hoping that will happen in the next five years. Lately I've been thinking about what kind of house I want and how much I want to get my own place. I miss having my own place.

My ideal world right now would be buying a tiny, crappy house with somewhat of a yard for Veronica and slowly fixing it up and hanging out with Veronica in our tiny house together.

I moved home after college to pay my student loans off quicker because my parents don't want me struggling to pay rent and my loan when they have room for me. They hate the concept of renting so they want me home to save for a house. And that's exactly what I want too. So while I'm paying almost double my loan payments, I'm putting chunks away here and there in my savings for eventually buying a house. I don't care how crappy or tiny really. As long as it's mine. :) I don't need anything big for now so I'll work my way up the real estate ladder and get a tiny one and fix it up and sell it down the road when I'm in my 30s and need a bigger one. This is my plan anyway.

As I continue my relationship with A I look forward to one day living with him. I look forward to cooking and baking and making a mess of our kitchen. I look forward to watching movies in our living room. I can't wait to barbeque in our backyard. I can't wait to have friend over to play games. I look forward to making a home together one day.

I'm a huge kitchen nerd. I can't wait to have a kitchen be all mine again. I want to get my dishes out I never got to use. And my pots and pans that I LOVE! And my Kitchen Aid Stand Mixer that my mom and stepdad got me... I LOVE LOVE LOVE that thing!! I want to use my skull oven mitts, and my funny glasses that my stepmom got me. I can't wait to make chocolate peanut butter squares and giant cupcakes and broccoli soup all the time like I used to for my friends in college. I can't wait to cook all the time like I used to. I miss all of that. :)

Anyway, A's been bugging me to get back on my blog and I remembered so I thought I'd blog what I was sitting here thinking about at work. :) I'm trying to remember to do it more.

Tee

Ugh!

I just spent half an hour writing a post and blogspot is being dumb and it didn't save or post. FML.