New blog...

I haven't been blogging much cause I'm been uninspired and bored I guess. I've also been very stressed lately and really struggling with handling that in a healthy way.

However...

I got inspired the other day.

While in a funk I was watching a Real World: San Diego marathon on my pvr, and got inspired by Nate on there making a website about suicide awareness and it pumped me up. I decided to make a site about all the different causes/charities/passions that fire me up. I have so many passions and I feel like I haven't been doing my part as the kid in my family that's gonna change the world. That's how my mom describes me out of the four of us :) but I've been lazy and not doing anything with human or animal rights. So I've been working on that for the past four or five days probably. I've spent hours already. Most nights I've been up until 3am working on it, and then getting up at 6 or 7 for work the following mornings, and working on it when I can during the day, and all night again. I won't be publishing it til I'm completely happy with all the info but for anyone interested...

It'll have info, links, how I got into each thing, where you can donate, where you can volunteer, where you can get help, how you can spread awareness, petitions, etc. It will be a collection of issues I feel are important and it's my attempt to bring awareness to each one, help one person, and help change the world together, a little at a time.

Topics that I'm covering (these aren't the only important things out there, they're just near and dear to me so I'm going to try to do my part):

- human rights - equality, accessibility
- disabilities, diseases (cancer, diabetes, heart disease, etc), disorders (including mental health, bipolar disorder, etc)
- animal rights - animal testing, animals for entertainment, veganism, vegetarianism, furs/skins)
- self-injury/suicide
- environment/going green
- lgbt
- individualism/body modifications - not being judged

Anyone, off to work on that while watching cupcake wars :) Please let me know if there's any important cause that you think I should include, if you like this idea, and if you want the link when it's up :)

Have a great night!
Tee

Excited...

I'm so lucky.

I'm very happy right now.

I have amazing friends, I have the best boyfriend in the entire world, I have a great family, and I have several jobs that I love.

I'm very excited to see RR and AW next month.

I'm sooooooo stoked for halloween to be a police car/police officer/bad guy with Ryan.

I'm excited that I get to hang out with A tomorrow after he's done work.

I'm excited to go out for date night with A this weekend even though he doesn't know we are. :)

I'm excited about the xmas gifts I'm making for people for xmas this year.

I'm excited about making zombie cupcakes for our halloween party in two weeks.

-Tee

I turn green!

One more day until I go to my cottage :)

Yay me!!

I'm very excited to be going for the first time this year, probably the last time this year as well. A has obviously never been so I'm happy he's coming, and TB is coming for the second time which I'm glad about. My cottage is my favourite place to relax at and I love it so I'm looking forward to spending time with A, TB, and Boog there. Boog loves it there too so he's super excited to go. He's also excited that it's A's first time in our boat. He helps Fluff drive the boat so he's already told me he'll drive A to the cottage for his first trip. LoL. What a kid. I have to get some last minute stuff tomorrow and pick up TB and A so I'm going to take the girls with me because they both want to see TB's apartment really bad, and they both want to see A's sister's horses. So busy day tomorrow getting stuff, picking my boys up, dropping the girls off when I'm done work, and heading home to pack and help my mother finish getting everything together and in the van. We're stopping in Belleville to pick up some headbands for Turtle from AW and we have to exchange money and Avon. A drug deal of sorts without the drug part.

Saw AW and RR last weekend. :) Had a great time there. RR and JR showed me pictures of their first house that they just purchased. I'm so excited for them and so jealous at the same time. I want my own house so so bad. My time will come. Just gotta keep saving and hope my car doesn't break too badly and not spend money, and try to earn more money :)

Anywho, back to doing extra work around here for the girls' mama. I've been trying to help her with more than day to day tidying that comes with being a nanny. I've moved into attacking a GIANT, and I meant GINORMOUS prickle weed thing in the back yard. I mean I pulled it out pretty easily, since I'm practically the Hulk. By easily of course I mean I was sweating to death and pricking my fingers through the gloves and swearing and cutting the weed that was seriously about 7 feet tall into tiny pieces. Finally I got to the base of it and tried to yank it out and it took me a full 5 minutes just for that. I tried to dig it out with a shovel but it was half under her deck so I had to pull it back and forth and do a little dance and eventually got it out. HUGE roots of course. Bastard weed! But anyway, got that done, been cleaning the basement, taking the leaf bag that got left out in the rain a billion times and fell apart and putting that into a new leaf bag which was gross due to a gazillion bugs. Got that into the shed so it doesn't happen again. Started putting renovation garbage into a couple bins for the dump. Cleaned the windows, dusted a bunch, vacuumed, etc. So I've been slightly busy trying to help get the house ready to sell!

So now I must get back to that. I brough A's seasons of the Buffy spinoff Angel to watch on this trusty laptop to watch while I fold a bunch of laundry and clean the laundry room and dungeon that I sleep in here :)

Have a lovely afternoon my pretties! :)

From the land of dryer-lint and dust bunnies,
-Tee

chirp chirp

I just finished watching Soul Surfer.

Good grief.

I cry at everything, whether it's a book, or a tv show, or a movie. If people tell me to stop watching or reading, I say no because it means I'm invested and enjoying it. I'll cry if it's sad or happy. I'm brutal!

So naturally, me watching Soul Surfer was guaranteed to involve tears. When I told A. I was watching it, he responded with "you would watch that" which is either a dig at me loving movies I know in advance are going to make me cry, or a dig at me watching "girly" movies. Whatever, he watched cartoons so pfft! :)

I really, really enjoyed Soul Surfer. I did cry quite a bit, and it definitely had sad parts, but it was SO inspiring. I really love movies that make me think about life, and what's important. There's nothing like watching a girl lose her arm, and still follow her dream to make you feel like a lazy ass! :)

So I'm jumping into gear tonight and getting shit done quicker at work tonight and tomorrow, and I've been writing a bit, and I'm going to work out soon and try to make a routine for what I'm going to do for my fitness plan. I've also been keeping up with twitter the past two days :) GO ME!

Hope you all have a fantastic night. I'll be watching Teen Mom while getting things done :) Which I know a couple of you will have already done tonight :) off to check my phone for a million twitter texts....

tweet, tweet
-Tee

I do love me some gay bar b-day festivities!

I just noticed my 3 Best Friends post and got ticked.
Update: that week I saw neither AW nor RR. Stupid car would be the culprit behind that. I am supposed to see them this coming Friday though. Fingers crossed. Saw TB a few times in the past two weeks. His birthday party this past Friday was beyond awesome! Two words: DRAG SHOW!

A-MAZ-ING.

Hugs & Kisses, Guys & Glitter
-Tee

So happy together...

I've started writing recently about things that make me happy, and how I want to spend more time doing those things, spending time with those people, and exploring what other things in life make me happy. I've also realized that I've been happier in the last few months and want to continue on with that. I've been working on it for the past week or so. It's getting fairly long and in-depth and I very much enjoy writing about the things that make me happy. It makes me appreciate the things I love about my life. It reminds me of the journal I bought that goes along with the book The Secret. Which by the way, is a good book that I like and try to practice but I'm terrible with things like that. I need to work on that more. So you should go look up that book. I believe it's a documentary or something too... so go now... find our what it's about!

So I was just sitting here thinking I wanted to write some more on that and realized I should write some of that on my blog. So I might copy and paste some of it, or start writing it here instead of just in a document on my computer. I'm not sure yet what I'll do about that.

Also I started reading a new blog that my mom really likes. It's a whole website by this mom that has recipes and photography and a blog and other crap on it. I finally just went on it and she had tips for blogging that said blog everyday, even if only a little. I'm going to try to work on that!!

That's it for now, kids.

Muah!
-Tee

3 Best Friends in 1 Week = Happy Tee

I'm so excited for the coming week :)

I'm doing my 48 hour stretch of work right now and I finish tomorrow at 1:30pm. After that I'm going home so Fluff can fix my brakes on Norton. Then I'm going to drive to Bellville to hang out with AW and........... RR!!!!!! Yay! I'm so stoked to hang out with my besties!

AW and I are gonna have dinner with RR in Trenton, then me and her are gonna hang out Sunday too. Sunday when I leave I'm going to A's place to bring his mama a coffee and hang out there :) Then Monday A and I will hang out. Tuesday I have to work an extra day shift. Then.......

Wednesday!! Wednesday I get to see TB. I saw him the other day cause he msged me at 10:30pm and said we needed to hang out asap cause he needed to talk so I drove to pick him up and we spent two hours in Tim Horton's talking boys, our lives lately, his birthday, etc. So... his birthday. He turns 23 in a couple weeks. We're having a toga party so we're gonna go shopping to get fabric and belts and accessories, etc. I'm so excited to spend a day shopping with him. :D

So I get to see all three of my best friends in one week which never happens anymore :) It makes me sad that it's such a rare thing to hang out with any of them, let alone all three in a few days. But I'm very, very excited!!

Now on to doing Avon work :)

Happy Friday!

-Tee

Happy Sigh. I F***ing Love Camping. :)

I'm really glad I'm going camping this weekend.

I need the break I think. I need to be not in a city and not surrounded by all the crap of the day-to-day grind. I can't wait to just read a book on the beach, or spend hours swimming. I can't wait to play catch with my dad, and badminton, and soccer. I can't wait to play cards, and board games. I can't wait to hang out by a fire with my parents, my stepsister and her friend, and A. I can't wait for vegan s'mores. :)

I can't wait to go on walks and just be outside non-stop.

I started my shift this afternoon and I work til Thursday afternoon for my overnights, and I hope they fly by because I can't wait until afterwork Thursday when I go get a table from my sister's tattoo studio (http://www.forevermoretattoos.com shameless plug!) and go get my camping groceries. I have to babysit my other little buddy Thursday night and then when I get home, I'm going through my camping stuff to make sure I have everything I need!

Friday means last minute laundry, then packing my clothes, outdoor rec stuff, chairs, tent, and everything I'll need into my car. :) My dad got me this wicked camping set for my college graduation present. It's an awesome tent, nice and big, with two camping chairs, two sleeping bags, and a mini tent to store little things in your tent, and that all fits in this ones carrying bag that's on wheels so it's super handy. :) So then I'm making homemade vegan bugers and vegan marshmallows, and getting my food ready Friday afternoon. Then hitting the beer store to return my brother and his friends' empties from our Saturday night get together to use their money at the liquor store for my camping beverages. Bahahaha. :)

Anyway, I'm just so excited to relax, and play, and have fun. :) I effing love camping.

-Tee

Sister talk

I spent so much time last night talking to TH and MM and TH asked me to be a girl for a sec and gush about A. I have a hard time doing that. I can do it in my blog or to A but i have a difficult time doing it to others 'cause I got used to telling nobody anything about my ex because it was always bad so i stopped so now telling good things is hard too. TH had to ask me specific questions she was curious about cause i didn't know what to say. So she asked me if i think it's a long term thing and i said yes and she asked why and i told her how well we click and that we're able to talk and we have similar viewpoints on things that are important to me and just that we connect so well and he treats me so good. :)

Time vs Money

I love working. Sooo, so much. I love being a nanny to the girls. I love my boss, she's easy to talk to.. we get along great, and she's laidback and nice. I love watching S when I get a chance too, even though he's cheekier these days :) I love doing respite relief with Boog. I enjoy selling Avon and Regal. I am liking my new respite job, but not sure I click with the family and the person I'm supporting enough to do it long-term. But I love working. The more downtime I have, the more I wish I was working. The only problem with how much I work, is how little time I have to go to Belleville to visit the W's. And that A and I have to work hanging out around when I work different things. And I haven't had a chance to see TB in forever!! And when I do have time off I try to go to see Faja. And then of course if I have time, I have no money and if I have money, I have no time. So getting to Belleville or Burlington or Aaron's can be tricky when gas is pricey these days.

I haven't got to see AW in ages, I haven't seen TB in ages, and I haven't see RR in ages but she lives crazy far so that's more understandable. :) I'm glad that RR is moving back because I'm hoping I'll be able to find some time to go visit her and AW at the same time. Also looking forward to a few roadtrips with AW and the boys to go visit RR and JR when they buy a new house in Ontario when they move back. It'll be a long road trip but fun I think for us to hang out on the way, and worth it when we arrive at RR and JR's new town. :)

I gotta start planning more time for people I don't get to see often! I'm gonna try people :)

-Tee

My Bestie

I'm so over the moon that RR and JR are moving back to Ontario. I'm beyond ecstatic that they'll be home again. Although they'll be living far away in the province it's just so nice to know it's driveable, and that we're further in the process of them being close to home again. :)

I miss them both so much. Not being able to see RR as much as when we were in school together, and even after we finished, has been difficult for the last two years. I'm so glad my bestie will be back!

Difficult Situation

Let me start this by saying I'm trying to respect confidentiality with this person so I'm trying to not give any details.

I've recently begun a new respite job with a person with a disability I've not had experience with. It's been challenging so far but it's been interesting to get experience with another disability. Not that I believe that all people with a disability are the same, far from it... but I just have never supported someone with this particular disability. I've met other people that have it, but I've never been in a supporting role with anyone affected by it.

I've had to face decisions and situations and circumstances that I never considered. I've had to problem solve on the spot quite a few times in various dilemmas. But so far I think I've done a good job with my common sense, what I learned in college, and with what I've learned in life thus far.

I've wrestled with my values and beliefs in what I think is right and wrong. I've struggled with my thoughts on a person's rights, and on restraining, and how to protect my own safety. It's been a tricky job so far.

The family of the person I'm supporting is making things a bit more complicated for me and they are making me not want to continue on in this job. They have asked me to do a couple favours that don't show respect for my role in their lives. I'm there to support their family member in community outings and to provide respite relief for them, not to do chores and errands for them on my way to their house. That has been frustrating and quite frankly offensive to my job, and annoying.

That's all for now I think.

ENGAGED!

Not me! Don't worry!

My brother MM took TH to Cuba a few weeks ago and proposed to her on the beach on May 25th with the ring I'd been hiding for him for a couple months :) Giving him the ring back before he left was tricky with her in the basement with us. There were some sneaky shananigans right under her nose! :)

They'll be getting married next year and I'm sooooooooooo happy and excited for them. That means wedding shower! Since they moved in last year I've gotten closer to them and gotten to see their relationship and I'm so happy for them. They're disgustingly adorable. :)

So yeah, so exciting :)

Tuesday Thoughts

I can't wait until I buy my first house. I'm hoping that will happen in the next five years. Lately I've been thinking about what kind of house I want and how much I want to get my own place. I miss having my own place.

My ideal world right now would be buying a tiny, crappy house with somewhat of a yard for Veronica and slowly fixing it up and hanging out with Veronica in our tiny house together.

I moved home after college to pay my student loans off quicker because my parents don't want me struggling to pay rent and my loan when they have room for me. They hate the concept of renting so they want me home to save for a house. And that's exactly what I want too. So while I'm paying almost double my loan payments, I'm putting chunks away here and there in my savings for eventually buying a house. I don't care how crappy or tiny really. As long as it's mine. :) I don't need anything big for now so I'll work my way up the real estate ladder and get a tiny one and fix it up and sell it down the road when I'm in my 30s and need a bigger one. This is my plan anyway.

As I continue my relationship with A I look forward to one day living with him. I look forward to cooking and baking and making a mess of our kitchen. I look forward to watching movies in our living room. I can't wait to barbeque in our backyard. I can't wait to have friend over to play games. I look forward to making a home together one day.

I'm a huge kitchen nerd. I can't wait to have a kitchen be all mine again. I want to get my dishes out I never got to use. And my pots and pans that I LOVE! And my Kitchen Aid Stand Mixer that my mom and stepdad got me... I LOVE LOVE LOVE that thing!! I want to use my skull oven mitts, and my funny glasses that my stepmom got me. I can't wait to make chocolate peanut butter squares and giant cupcakes and broccoli soup all the time like I used to for my friends in college. I can't wait to cook all the time like I used to. I miss all of that. :)

Anyway, A's been bugging me to get back on my blog and I remembered so I thought I'd blog what I was sitting here thinking about at work. :) I'm trying to remember to do it more.

Tee

Ugh!

I just spent half an hour writing a post and blogspot is being dumb and it didn't save or post. FML.

just the way you are...

I wonder how I went so long not knowing A. I feel so lucky to have him in my life. I love spending time with him and I love that if we're out or if we're at one of our houses doing nothing I still enjoy the time with him. I partly feel like I wasted time with other people when he was out there, but my decisions and experiences have brought me where I am today so I suppose I wouldn't have met him otherwise.

I love being with him, I miss him when we're apart, and I look forward to the next time I'll see him.

We do a lot for each other and we make a good team I think.

I finally found someone who gives me what I'm looking for. He makes me smile so many times a day, even when I don't see him. He texts me randomly throughout the day saying such sweet things. I feel so lucky to be with him, and I know he feels the same. :)

I am so in love.

-Tee

Nokia N8...Oh How I Love You

	So I've had to deal with a broken phone for over a month. I got it a year ago and had a bunch of problems with it since I got it but dealt with it. Of course when it finally breaks for good it's just outside of my warranty and they essentially say I'm screwed. But there's a different phone I want so it's all good. But then I can't get that phone for the sale price. Uhh... Pain in the ass much? Finally my mother manager to argue her way into me getting the phone I want. And I love it! It's a Nokia N8. It's a smartphone so I had to get a data plan and get rid of the internet I already had on my phone and change my plan. So now I really like my plan and love my phone. :) I can finally listen to music again and wake up to a song as my alarm and have a phone that actually rings! Lol.

Alberta-Bound

It would appear that I did not post my blog about Calgary.

DUH!!!!!

So sorry folks. I am the worst bestie ever!!

Here goes:

I finished work on the 8th of March at 130pm. I had a brutal sore throat for three days. I picked up A to hang out before I left for almost a week. We hung out at my place and I tried to relax since I was sick. Eventually he came with me to the walk in clinic and I got expensive!! drugs for my throat.

I hung out with him that night and dropped him off at his place late that night. I was gonna miss him but I was sooooo excited to see RR and JR. I went home and texted A while I packed some stuff.

The next morning I took the train to Faja's house and he picked me up at the station. Two hours of travel to get there. I was at his place for a couple hours and during that time I transferred my stuff from my duffel bag to Faja's suitcase. I went online and picked my seat (17F) and checked in. We left shortly after and drove half an hour to Hamilton's airport. I checked my bag and my dad and I got Tim Hortons while we waited a bit. With an hour til I started to board I decided to go through security since I was nervous about it because I never had before. Got through there fairly uneventfully. Waited for an hour then started to board.

Showed the girl my license and my boarding pass. Walked outside to the ramp. Up the ramp to the plane. Showed the flight attendant my boarding pass and she vaguely pointed. Walked down the aisle, found my seat, got stuff I wanted out of my PeTA bag, and threw my bag in the overhead thing. Sat down and put my seatbelt on. Played with the tv a bit. Waited forever and ever.

Then we started driving down the runway slow-ish. I drive faster. Then we turned around and started going back up the runway. Fast. Faster. And up.

Oh. My. Goodness.

Best feeling ever! It's so awesome. The butterflies in my stomach were going nutso with the lift-off. It was a cool thing to be on my first plane ride by myself. I felt so brave :)

Then a million years later we started to go down and we landed. I was SOOOOO excited. I txted my facebook status to let ppl know I made it safe and I gathered my stuff, walked off the plane, on a ramp, into the airport.

I was there!

I saw a sign that said baggage and just kept following those signs. Eventually I went down an escalator and through automatic doors.... and there they were.

MY BESTIE AND HER HUSBAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was sooooooooooo excited to see them. I hugged RR and JR and they gave me my favourite frap from Starbucks that they had brought me. Yum-o and so sweet :)

JR grabbed my bag and we went to the car. We drove to their house and I finally got to see where they live. I walked around their house taking pictures of me in their house. :) We had some food and played rockband and eventually went to bed.

Next morning I woke up wayyyyy too early. Early for Alberta time and early for Ontario time so it sucked balls!!

R and J had to work that day so I washed dishes, played rockband, and entertained myself for the day while was nice. :) R picked me up after work and we went to get J. We played rock band, had dinner, and hung out that night I think.

Friday R had off but J worked. I can't remember if that's the day we went shopping. Yeah, I think it was. We went to two malls. I bought extensions, we got lunch, we chatted about boys :) we went to another mall.

Oh my gosh. I heart this mall. They had Sephora, MAC, Teaopia, Lush, and so many other amazing stores. I got a cropped, off the shoulder top to wear over tanks that says "I (heart) my bf" and we got some exfoliation done at Lush. We  tried a bunch of makeup at Sephora on our hands. We walked the entire mall, got some ice cream and left. It took us quite a while :)

We got back too late to cook for our husband like good wifeys so we went to pick him up and made dinner when we got back I think. I think we went bowling that night. If so, we went to this sketchy bowling place that was hard to find. We got pizza and it was delish! We played two and a half games. I won them all!!! Just kidding. I like to think we all won in our own way! lol.

Saturday we made a cake. And ate it. The whole thing. So delish! I think we went to the general store this day. I got some cool stuff. We had a girls night and watched House Bunny and did face masks :) And we crocheted!! We're hard core!

Sunday we worked on headbands during the day. Josh should've napped but didn't. We went to dinner at a vegetarian/vegan/raw restaurant and had the best dinner ever. We both LOVED being able to go somewhere and not disect the menu for "safe" stuff for us to eat. It was incredible!! R had a calzone and I had a quesidilla. It was soooo good! We did my photoshoot that night. It took us a couple hours but I love the pictures. They were awesome!! R is such a great photographer! :)

Monday. Time to go home. :( R drove me to the airport super early! I don't wish to discuss this part cause it bums me out.

I'm sure I left stuff out but as I remember I'll add in. I had a great time with my best friends :) I love hanging out with both of them and it was such a great week. I was excited to go, sad to leave, and missed waking up in my room there when I got back. :(

I get to see RR in a few weeks when she comes to visit but I'll only see her one day and it's not the same. Boo! I hope to go there again before she moves back because I not only enjoyed spending lots of time with her and J, but I loved their town and Calgary.

I miss it so much. I miss them so much.

Love you guys!!

Fuck You

Yet again that fucking moron that is dating my ex messages me.

FUCK OFF!!!!

Oh my gosh. Get a fucking life. Seriously.... why on earth do you not have anything better to do than bug me. Pick up a fucking book, turn on the tv, go for a walk. Find. A. Fucking. Hobby.

Cause You're Amazing, Just The Way You Are

I cannot remember the last time I felt this happy in a relationship.

I've never felt like someone was so right for me. I talked to RR when I visited her last month about how it's so surprising and odd for me to hear A compliment me so much, so often, so sweetly. She said she was so happy for me that I finally have that, but that she was sad for me that it wasn't the norm, and that I found it strange.

That led me to thinking about how little I got that in the past. I'm not saying that any of my past relationships were douchebags or anything. Well... no we'll just leave it at that. But I was never treated as well as A treats me. Normally my bitch side comes out in a relationship. Or I walk all over the person. When you don't have that connection, or you don't feel they care about you it's easy to do that.

I worried with A being such a sweet, kind person, that I'd bring out the bitch, or walk all over him and I don't think I have. I've warned him about it but he just keeps saying that I'm not like that with him. Which is so bizarre for me. He's just so sweet and I don't want to be like that to him.

I'm so crazily happy these days. I miss him when I'm not with him. As soon as I leave, I can't wait to be with him again. I want to spend all my time with him just being with him, getting to know him better, and sharing who I am with him. I want him in my day-to-day, I want him in my life.

I think I may have been corrected on my disbelief in love at first sight.